Musings of the CandleVixen

Holiday wishes and musings.

Fri, 25 Dec 2009 06:53:47 GMT

It's been snowing most, if not all of today here. Snow on Christmas Eve/Christmas here in Dallas-Fort Worth is rare, it's usually just cold, grey and raining. Somehow, this fact just makes it more magical for me. For some of my friends it's their first. For some, it's common place. All the same, it's had such a calming effect on me.

Merry Christmas to everyone. May we all be blessed many times over in the new year. May friendships that have been rekindled continue to prosper, for far too many years have past us by. My deep and humble love to you all.

Last night was a get together at our house, for some people that I had not seen either together or as a group in literally decades.
It was like we never lost touch. The sad thing was that my husband was still sick and not up to the visiting. HE would have learned alot about us, and me, that my memories fail me now.

Also, I'm mad at myself that I procrastinated way too long and ended up having two of my friends who came early help me get the front of the house ready. I didn't get to mop, or dust or vacuum, but I think a decent time was had by all.

The two boys, who had not been around that many people unmedicated before (the last large group was Mom's wake, and they had some pup tranks in them). They acted very well, I'm so proud of them.

Damn, it's that time again

Sat, 12 Dec 2009 16:20:44 GMT

And this year, I'm actually getting cards out.

Ok, those of you who would like a Christmas or Holdiay card from me, please PM me. Fill up my inbox! or email me candlevixenjo @ aol.com

I'm still alive, Jim's still alive, the boys are still alive. That's the best update I can do right now.

HB Daddy

Tue, 01 Sep 2009 02:30:08 GMT

I know I'm a few hours early.

Happy 78th Birthday Daddy, I still love and miss you. Every day, I want to call you and Mom about some silly stuff. So I look like a blubbering idiot in the car on the way home, talking to you two in the car.

RIP to a Super Pioneer in Music

Fri, 14 Aug 2009 00:15:13 GMT

I still have Mom's old 78's he did with his then wife, most of it was just "playing" around.

Things like the echo chamber, he designed. Lots more than "just the guitar" that's named after him.

He lived a rich life, and had many admirers, including me.

http://www.spinner.com/2009/08/13/les-paul-in-his-own-words/?icid=main|htmlws-main|dl7|link3|http%3A%2F%2Fwww.spinner.com%2F2009%2F08%2F13%2Fles-paul-in-his-own-words%2F

bleah!

Thu, 13 Aug 2009 03:08:40 GMT

Ugh...life sucks...I've been really bad off this week.
Here's hoping I can get back to work in the morning. I actually miss it.

HB mom

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 23:32:52 GMT

Happy Birthday Momma. I still miss you and Dad daily. Does it ever get better, or as you said, "just different"?

You would have been 80. I hope you're parting in heaven, with your ciggs, wine, and cake.

I love you Mom.

nothing new to update, really

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 05:21:07 GMT

Been in and out of work, part from depression, mostly from stupid silly health. Working on the depression part, and I see specialists next week for the tummy/belly issues.

I'm sure I'll get to do the upper and lower scopes. joy! Hubby has no time left to take off, and well, let's just say it's going to be fun.

I guess I'll know more after seeing the gastro doc on Tusday.

I twitter almost as much as I blog here. Facebook is all games and such.

I so need motivation to get this house in order, get my garage in order, and get to where I can start playing with my wax/fragrance/bath stuff again.

It's just hard when I feel like my life just sux at the moment.

I try to do right, and I end up feeling like it's wrong. Some issues are beyond my control, and some are things I can and should change.

:: Sigh :: I just am really, really melancholy at the moment.

I guess I will log off now, and try to update better in the future.

Writer's Block: Regrets Only

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 02:13:42 GMT

Do you think that animals feel regret?

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Yes, they do. I do not believe that they do not have emotions or feelings.
I've seen my two dogs, and all my other animals exhibit regret, sadness, joy, alot of emotions.
I think the one in my icon is mischevious as well!

500K for 78 year old's collection

Tue, 19 May 2009 00:56:09 GMT

http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/30810200/?gt1=43001

Nice chunk of change. See, collecting's not dead, it's just dormant.

Mon, 04 May 2009 15:08:53 GMT

do be do be do

Random thoughts, or, things that pop in your head when doing dishes

Mon, 04 May 2009 09:25:57 GMT

1) I'm lazy because I hate housework. I really want a wife. Someone to cook, clean, do laundry, etc. So I can have time to enjoy what I want to do. I told this to someone at work, and they said adopt a teen. That's what they're there for.

2) My mom's father, Pappy, was a canning plant manager in a small Mississippi town, where she grew up. They used to get and can whole pimmentos. One day Pappy came home to get all of Ma's paring and small knives. He decided that the pimmentos that had small spots or blemishes were going to waste being tossed out. So, he pulled some of the ladies off the line, and had them start paring and cutting and dicing the pimmentos. Bam! sliced and diced pimmentos were born. This was I think during the second world war. He canned the sliced and the diced ones, a short run of a few cases, and what do you know? They sold out! In less than a week.

My mother worked as a secretary for two lawyers "in town". She asked Pappy to let her file a Patent on them, or at least try. He said, "Nah, won't ammount to anything. Less than four weeks later, the same idea showed up in small jars and cans from another brand. My mother could have been a pimmento heiress. ::Sigh::

3) When washing a pizza pan that has holes in it, don't expect the water to sluice off the side that you're rinsing. It's going to go from the sprayer, THROUGH the holes and onto the dry dishes on the dish drain. Idiot.

4) Leaving the testy mutt in the bedroom with a sleeping hubby while the other mutt is in the kitchen with me doing dishes was not a good idea. Half an hour into it, hubby's whistling to get my attention, asking why the hell Mickey was locked up with him, whining. Shit.

5) Looking through BBC America's site, I discovered some returning gems. Primeval is this month, as is Hotel Babylon. Torchwood is sometime this year, with the subtitle of Children of Earth. Robin Hood supposedly returned last month, but it's not on the schedule. Buggers.
Also, two new shows...or new to me. Survivors, about some form of holocaust that mankind has to group together to survive. And, the one that perked my ears up...Being Human, three guys living in a flat, trying to be normal blokes. The picture of the man is hot, and the premise is the three men, one is a ghost, one is a werewolf, and one is a vampire. My cup of tea. Speaking of, I missed the season/series finale of Ashes to Ashes. Grrr. And my other guilty pleasure Bull Run on Speed.

6)Less than a month to the new LKH, Anita Blake book, Skin Trade. All I know is that it's about a serial killer. I wish Laurel would back off on the sex a bit with this series, and get back to the crime solving and such. I enjoyed most of the earlier books with that. I'm sure that the end will justify the means, eventually. She's building up Anita too much for it to peter out. But, our luck, it will be like the wonderful Star Trek epsisodes. Big build up, and whoop, ten minutes to solve the damn thing. Data or Wesley swoops in to save the day.

7) I really, really like this new house, even though the carpets are mostly off white and the back yard is dirt. Do the math...two dogs...dirt, black clay, rains. What do you think the carpets look like now?

8) I am digging Diet Cherry Coke. I have 'become' a 'full on Diabetic' and now have to seriously watch my sugar intakes. I can't really stomach most items that are sugar free. I've been trying some here and there, and the DCCoke has really been fine. So has the Estee Delights Chocolate bars. Smaller than I like, but they do satisfy.

9) I'm reading the New Jedi-Republic-Galactic Alliance series that's happening in the SW "EU". I hate that Lucas popped up and started that Team A vs Team B. Tight control of the timelines, making sure everything fits into continuity, and then he starts the bs. If you didn't want it, why let Timothy Zhan write the fantastic Trillogy way back when? Anyway, the story's leaving me apathetic. More so than usual.

10) Four days off, two paid, and I forgot to take my sleep meds at 9pm last night, makes for a semi cranky Jo at 4am. I should head to bed soon, and slather my hands up with lotion, to offset the icky dried out feeling.

11) IF you are on Facebook, let me know, I have some 'newer' pics of the kids up there.

12) I am mad, sort of. I just found out that Yahoo's shutting down geocities this fall. So, that means I have to go find another craptastic (I love that word) free host to put alot of my stuff on. Or, I could upload to my free business site. Though, I wanted to keep the play and the business separate.

13) My best friend is having to deal with Aging, Senile Parents now. Unfortunately for Gelfling, her parental units are in Kansas. So, Monday is our planned girls go out away from hubby day, then she goes Tuesday up to Kansas to pick up or set up travel to 'bring them home'. I do not envy her the task. That being said though, she has been with me through all the trials of Mom and Dad, and I will do the same for her, to the capacity that I can. After all, we're ohana. At least I think so. Pray to whomever you do, that she stays strong in all this.

14) I'm scared to say work's going good, because every time I say that, shit happens and it goes south for me, or hubby. So I'm not. Just know that I realized the other day, that the Monday after Mother's Day will by my two year unofficial mark. Then a mere three and a half months after that, will be the two year offical mark for me at the Federation.

15) Sprite makes nice snow in your freezer, but it's a sweet sticky mess to clean up. I had ran out of ice, my water was hot, as were the sodas. So, I thought, Stick two cans in the freezer, they'll cool down in about an hour, hour and a half. Ok.
So, I go to the restroom, and as I'm walking TO THE KITCHEN, to retrieve the sodas, I hear a pop in the freezer. I think the water bottle I put in there got jacked up. Nope. I wasn't so lucky. It was...duh duh duh....one of the cans of Sprite. I have a winter wonderland on my freezer. On the walls, on the meat, on the ice trays.
I start laughing like a drunken idiot, while I clean it up. Or try to. The frozen sprite packed like new fallen snow. So here I am, giggling idiot, tossing Sprite snow balls at the piled up dishes in the sink. Some of it is missing, hitting the floor and the dogs are picking it up. Finally, my hands are so frozen I can't take anymore of the clean up, so I decide to retrieve what's left of the soda in the cans and pour it or scoop it into a glass for a slushie or something. Riiigghhtttt!
Grabbing a hand can opener I cut the top off the busted open one, and it scoops and pours out ok into a glass. Hey, this is going easy, I think. I'll just do the same trick with the unopened one, since it's solid too, (and close to bursting open as well) no problem.
Boy was I wrong! So once the can opener cuts into the preassurized can, guess what? Fizzy gyser city. All over me, the dogs, but not, all over the kitchen. Somehow the physics of frozen beverages expelled in cans at high velocity's direction is in proportion to how clean you are, and how dirty your kitchen is. I didn't have to wipe up a counter at all. ME? I was a sticky mess. So, still laughing, with the dogs looking at me like I'm an idiot, I head to the hall bathroom to wipe down with a wet washcloth.
But, I did enjoy the snow Sprite for a bit until it melted back to it's normal fizzy goodness.

I had something else in my head and it's gone now. So I'll sign off.

I bid you peace.

About to flood with posts maybe

Sun, 03 May 2009 21:58:50 GMT

More vamp goodies

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 08:07:07 GMT

http://www.laurellkhamilton.org/Anita/SkinTrade.htm

First 'chapter' up!
Also, there's something being cooked up with LKH and IFC Channel, either a telemovie or a series or both for Anita.

Sweet.

Now, as for me...same old. Battling depression and all the other ills. IBS has now come into play. Yeah, don't get old kids, it sucks.

I also now am on Facebook, MySpace, and Twitter. Why? My posse, my friends use those, and it's the best way to keep in touch since we all don't call each other.

I'm down, because crap keeps piling up, internally and externally. I had wanted to have Easter dinner here, in a well picked up home, most of it ready anyway.
Nope, nada, not done. Fuck I can't keep my kitchen dishes from piling up. ::Sigh::

Right now, I'm watching a rerun of How Clean is Your Home on BBC America. It makes me feel better, because my shit aint that bad.

I know I need to take it one room at a time, one night at a time. I just have no will power to do it. I need motivation, or something.

BTW...Ashes to Ashes rawks.

YEA!!!!! Lots of Vamp Goodness today!

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 01:38:17 GMT

http://www.tvshowsondvd.com/news/Blood-Ties-Season-1/11430

The bad side is that it is only the first half of the series. But, still 11 eps is good.

Also, the new Anita Blake book comes out on 6/2/09! Skin Trade. No hints yet on LKH's site about it, except for the cover art.

I'm catching up so to speak on Moonlight, which ran opposite Blood Ties. It's not half bad. It's also on DVD somewhere. Need to get these too.

I guess I should be thankful to Twilight, for sparking Vamps being "cool" again. There's another series on CW I think that's fang related. True Blood on HBO is a trip. I need to read the source books on that too.

Gah

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 08:24:48 GMT

Ok...I didn't end up going to work the rest of last week. Doc said, "Hey, guess what? It's a migraine!" and gave me good stuff.

Now the biggest problem is getting back to work on Monday. Mom in law called me last night in tears, could I take her to her scope on Monday?

I love her, but I wish to hell I knew this LAST WEEK when I could ask for the time off and not have it as 'unscheduled' (which is bad, and I'll have three days plus come Monday)

Anyway, apparently Dad in law's being his psycho dick self again, and that's why she was crying.

It breaks my heart to hear her like this. Senility runs in the family, and I'm not looking forward to old age with hubby, because of it.

So we'll see come Monday if I a) need to take her to her procedure, and or 2) I still have a job.

I doubt they'll fire me, I still have one more 'step' to go on before that happens.

I just CAN NOT MISS anymore unscheduled time at all, for any reason.

Before you ask, hubby's used up his sick time with again, the flu and a sinus infection.

I will probably be boring you all with junk, crap, and some logs if I can find them and clean them up.

I gotta find a stress relief outlet for hubby and i both.

I hope everyone's enjoying their first day/night of March.

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 22:15:26 GMT

ANohter boring update.

My birthday's come and gone. It was a decent day.

Then yesterday happened. between a seriously bad migraine (I never get them that bad, it's still with me today) and the car breaking down (It's a fixable one, no worries) I was exhaused.

Work's gone into the busy season. Why is it that ALL residencies start on the same day? It's good business for us though, I'm not complaining too much.

Other than my head, eh. Stayed home today, probably should have gone in after lunch, but I'm still dizzy. (hush)

house's still not finished, and I'm determined not to let this one get like the last rental. Thing is, how do you do it when there's no drive to get it done?
Suggestions are appreciated.

Still geeky!

Sun, 01 Feb 2009 05:06:38 GMT

You Scored as Heart of Gold (Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy)

You are a light and humorous person. No one can help but to smile to your wit. Now if only the improbability drive would stop turning you into weird stuff.

Heart of Gold (Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy)

81%

Babylon 5 (Babylon 5)

81%

Serenity (Firefly)

75%

Moya (Farscape)

75%

Millennium Falcon (Star Wars)

75%

SG-1 (Stargate)

69%

Deep Space Nine (Star Trek)

69%

Galactica (Battlestar: Galactica)

69%

Andromeda Ascendant (Andromeda)

63%

Bebop (Cowboy Bebop)

50%

Nebuchadnezzar (The Matrix)

50%

Enterprise D (Star Trek)

44%

FBI's X-Files Division (The X-Files)

31%

Tha Vixen is Sad.

Sat, 31 Jan 2009 05:45:04 GMT

Miss you already, Uncle. Sorry we lost touch with everyone after Mom died.

I'm thinking Grandma's happier now that all her boys are at her table again.

http://www.obitservices.com/obits.php?ID=9292

He was my father's eldest brother. I'm sad but also, knowing what ailments he was dealing with, I'm still happy he and my aunt aren't suffering anymore.

I would have loved to have seen them one more time but it wasn't in the cards I guess.

I feel a loss, and it seems funny, but he was the last 'blood' link. Who's left, are my aunts, who all married into the family. Why they didn't run screaming out of the family never ceases to amaze me.

Uncle's smile stayed the same, even always hitting his eyes. Though, he had more wrinkles and less hair through the years.

He always had a story, even if it was a bullshlt one. Tall tales, braggart, what ever you want to call it. He was still one of my favorite uncles. Mainly because one died when I was a young teen, and Dad and Uncle were the only two who moved away from my grandparents after the war.

I didn't want this to become a ramble, I just wanted to share my latest 'news'.

Those of you who know me...what say you?

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 05:54:11 GMT

You Are Copper

You are provocative and challenging. You help people realize who they really are.

You live a very balanced life. You always take time for love and art.

You are both a powerful and generous person. You always have time to give back.

People find you to be incredibly ethical and loyal.

What Metal Are You?

Hmmmm

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 05:52:38 GMT

Just enough to think the world's gone to shit, but, still optimist enough to think that we'll get through it.

I've always said I was like Piglet to my friends, the optimist cheeleader, and Eeyore about myself.

You Are 44% Cynical

Yes, you are cynical, but more than anything, you're a realist.

You see what's screwed up in the world, but you also take time to remember what's right.

How Cynical Are You?

Dies laughing

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 05:46:19 GMT

Well, Honey, I guess I really am Cutie Honey. *has a giggle fit*

Your International Spy Name is Honey Intrigue

Your Code Name: Fingercuffs

You Reside in: Berlin

Why You're a Good Spy: You're agile

What's Your International Spy Name?

This is me when all's right in my world. Errr. Acuatlly, it is me all the time.

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 05:44:08 GMT

Your Word is "Peace"

You see life as precious, and you wish everyone was safe, happy, and taken care of.

Social justice, human rights, and peace for all nations are all important to you.

While you can't stop war, you try to be as calm and compassionate as possible in your everyday life.

You promote harmony and cooperation. You're always willing to meet someone a little more than halfway.

What's Your Word?

When the hell did it become end of January!?!?!?!?!?!

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 05:39:49 GMT

Last time I looked at a calendar, I was coming into the new year.

Now, suddenly I've 'lost' three weeks.

Not really, but January has been strife will illnesses and colds and malaises and ibs.

It's not fun, and it's made me massively cranky. I've missed a whole month because of it. Looks like I'll miss an important date this weekend too. =(

Argh...this sucks.

Rant/vent---off.

Well...phase one complete

Sat, 27 Dec 2008 04:13:25 GMT

We've finally moved all the crap from one place to another. I miss the moving fairies that used to help my mother out while I and my brothers were in school.

Now, things are in boxes and bags, but we're slowly making headway. YEA!
I do not know how the hell I would have done this with children. I do not know how my parents did it, or how my friends who have children do it. You are all stronger people than me.

Christmas was a bit of a whimper with us this year. I had about 40 bux to spend on hubby, and he spoiled me with two defunct TV Series DVD sets.
And a new mouse, because my old one crapped out on me earlier this week.

Mom and Dad got us an Xbox 360! Yea!

On the plus side, it was quiet this year. I decided next year, we'll do Turkey day at our house, and maybe even Christmas, if I can get hubby to agree to it all.

The house is big enough!

Two car garage means once the interior of the house is done, I can get my wax and wicks and other parafinalia out and PLAY! It's been more than two years, and honestly, I didn't do much while Mom was sick, so it's closer to three or four years since my company was live.

Those of you who sent cards, they were all lovely! I keep meaning to do that on the weekend of Thanksgiving, but dammit....time freaks out on me and the next thing I know it's new years.

I bid you all peace, prosperity and much happiness for the new year.
Love to you all,
J, hubby and the kyds.

Gaked from Sis

Wed, 03 Dec 2008 05:42:52 GMT

Your rainbow is shaded blue.

What is says about you: You are a tranquil person. You appreciate friends who get along with one another. You share hobbies with friends and like trying to fit into their routines.

Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.